Friday, September 29, 2006

How The Heck Is Everyone?

I'm alive. That's how I am. I'm trying to stay busy. I've got trips galore planned. Trips to Branson, trips to Dallas, maybe even a trip back East to visit my annonymous friend. I really hope I can do that.
I've signed up for unemployment, but it's taking a while to get started. I've been doing the required job hunting and funny how when you aren't really looking for a job, that everywhere you go, people are hiring. I want to draw that unemployment check until I can FINALLY go back to school in January. Sounds like a plan to me. Hopefully, it will all work out this time.
I'm back to blogging from the public library. How exciting. I've got 11 minutes of my session time left, so I'm out of here. Just thought I'd let anybody who might be curious know that I was still kicking.
Later!

Monday, September 11, 2006

A quick update and that might be it for a while.
First of all, I apologize for taking off and not saying a word. To anyone. The day after my birthday, my life came crashing down when Mike announced that he was leaving me. Yes, there is a reason and no, I'm not telling anyone. So don't ask. There's been a lot of tough times in our recent past and it finally came to a head and we couldn't take it anymore. Instead of him leaving, though, I left. That first night I drove down to some dumpy motel somewhere in Arkansas, then I went to my parents. Talk about swallowing your pride. We stayed separated for only a week and we discovered that being apart from one another was even worse than staying with each other. Many, many, MANY tears were shed on both sides. Countless words were spoken until I finally said, okay, we either fish or cut bait. I didn't want to drag it out indefinitely. So, we got back together.
Things were strained but every day gets better. I am making an effort, Mike is making an effort. We both still love each other but sometimes things just happen that make that love hardly worth the effort. Love shouldn't be a battlefield, like I've been calling it lately. But, our love is worth the effort. We are both really working hard right now.
Life can really suck. Then life can turn around and be beautiful. I'm opting for more of those beautiful moments.
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On a side note, the day care is closing down this Friday. What a great year, huh? I lose my pastor, almost lose my husband and lose my job. All within 4 months.
But, I don't care. I'm starting my life over today, just like I did yesterday, and the day before, and like I'll do again tomorrow. I take it one day at a time (sweet Jesus). It is taking Jesus, without him, I couldn't even get out of bed in the morning.
So, don't call me unless I call you first. Don't send me any emails, unless I send you one first. My computer is on the fritz anyway, I'm at work posting this. And as of Friday, I won't even have this option. Life goes on. Try to make the best of it. And if you screw up, get up, dust yourself off, make the proper apologies and get on with life. And hopefully, your loved ones can be there with you through it all.
Be good, everybody.